Text from edit of "Dreams" by Delia Derbyshire
(9 minutes of a 45-minute radio work).

I disappeared under... the sea
And I would surface again
And I would start to drown again
And I would surface again
Come up again
And then I would go down into the water
And I had the sensation that I was going to drown
And it was frightening and suffocating
		My clothes were dragging me back
It was all around me, this water, and I didn't like it.

And I began to feel very frightened

...seemed to go down and down and down
		My clothes were dragging me back
It was very dark and very deep
	The sea is very deep
I seemed to be drowning

I *am* going to drown!
And I thought, well it's no use trying to think I'm not, er, going to drown;
I *am* going to drown!
		And it was frightening and suffocating

No reflection in the water

I was in the water
And it was a feeling as though the water was coming towards me
		And I began to feel very frightened

And being that I can't swim and afraid of water
It seemed a greater fear

And then I would go down into the water and the sea seemed vast and there
weren't many waves: it wasn't a stormy sea, but it was a frightening sea.
And there were sort of bluey colours, bluey-greeny colours
		And it was all colours like the rainbow
		as if there was a light shining behind it
And then I would shout and say "I won't do it, I won't do it"
And I would surface again
		I saw a cloud of spray ... rising high up into the air
		and it was all colours like the rainbow
		as if there was a light shining behind it.

		I saw a cloud of spray
And I had the sensation that I was going to drown
And I would surface again and I would start to drown again
And I would surface again, come up again
Then I would go down into the water
And I had this sensation that I was going to drown
And it was frightening and suffocating.
	It was all around me, this water, and I didn't like it
		And I began to feel very frightened
			I must tell my mother!

All I can remember is falling into the water
It was very dark and falling down and down and down
It was very dark and very deep and I seemed to be drowning
			I must tell my mother!
		My clothes were dragging me back

The sea is very deep.
I'd go into the sea and then I go right down to the bottom
and there is some land there.  The land at the bottom of the sea

It's very still, it's flat.  No reflection in the water.
Lovely clear water
The water looked to be rather, sort of, bluey
		And I didn't like it.

And suddenly all this water became full of other people and other things all falling.
Full of other people and other things all falling,
all going downwards the same as I was
and chairs and tables and things like this
and all these people were all floating downwards through this water
and chairs and tables and things like this
And I put my arms up and tried to catch hold of them
		And I began to feel very frightened

I was in the water and it was a feeling as though the water was coming towards me
And being that I can't swim and afraid of water it seemed a greater fear.
And as I sort of pushed back and I felt I was pushing back the water,
so I felt the mud in my hands.
And then I seemed to be clearing the mud which was really saturated with water.
And as I pushed and pushed so I came across something and I was still pushing
and I knew it was somebody.
And I felt them. I could feel the shoulders then the face
And then I could feel this tin hat.
And as I pushed the hat one side, the helmet one side
so I could see my youngest brother's face.
And then I felt him, and I knew a little about first aid
And I felt him, felt down the body
And as I got to the hip he more or less shuddered
And I could see by his face that he was in pain
Even though he had the mud and stuff on it.
I pushed the hat back and I thought to myself,
I knew he's safe, he's alive.  I must tell my mother.

He just wasn't because he was dead.
He looked like him but he just wasn't because he was dead.
I just walked towards him and I just picked him up
And he wasn't any more, and I could think he was my baby,
He looked like him but he just wasn't because he was dead.

I'd go into the sea and then I go right down to the bottom
and there is some land there.
I always die on the land.  The land at the bottom of the sea.